Am I Good Enough?

Monday Night. Through the melody of pourin' rain. I wondering myself.

Am I good enough?

I don't good enough to accept the kindness. What have I ever done to receive this much kindness, eh? Did I ever save a person in my previous life?

This year feels like I receive so much kindness and blessing. Sometimes I think that my dream nearly reach out. Just one step closer, and when I want to up to the stairs the dream feels far away. Like utopia. No. It's not about reset to the beginning, but I feel afraid step up again. I need something to hold on.

Am I good enough to handle every problem that I had? This year feels so exhausting. I'm tired and have been crying to through it. Even now, I don't know how I still look fine after all. Hahaha. When overthinking strikes your impulsive-ness. Whoa, I feel lost at times.

After all this overwhelming year, I just wanna laying down on the grass and looking the blue sky. Contemplation. Am I doing better than last year? Am I good enough to having someone new? Can I be better day by day?

Sigh. With this wonderful year, I just wanna thankies myself. Thank you for being myself, for not giving up, for choose to happy, for everything. Thank you for this year. Let's growing up better more than year ago. I promise that I'll never give up on everything.